if i could

if i could cry a thousand tears
a thousand rivers
 to adhear
a thousand sand spec's
for a thousand seas
 a millions stars
'twene you and me.
if i could yell a thousand sounds
a thousand voices you could hear.


if i
 if i could
o if only i could cry
 a voice to reach across the sky
 a voice so you knew u wern't alone
 a voice so loud to call you home


if i could you'd find yourself with me
 a thousand lives
 a thousand thoughts,
 voices and deaths,
 you'd know the tears
 that i have wept.

if
if i
 if i could hear your voice right now
 i know the way to show you how
 the way to show and make you feel
 the way to tell you what is real

but if i could let you know the truth
 and scream from the utmost roof
if only i could let you see
 the deaths you bring alive in me


the words the song to treat me right,
to bring along this lonely fight


if only i knew how to express
 the words that show, but who knows best?
 my friend she stands in this room
she see me wright and speak of doom
 but if i could live life and love and learn
 and get all and more but in return
then my life id feel
and have for all time
so i could speak, love without out ryhme
or reason

if i could
but i can't
so i shan't
and i shall stand alone until my tears fall.
 because right now
 they wont come at all.
 so i wait
 for the "if i could's"
 'cos i would.

but i cant. so i shan't.

so i shan't.






Esme - aug 20th 2011